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Beware of harmful comments. Sunday, January 3, 2010 9:18 PM

P.s. Whatever is written below, trust me, I do not harbour any unhappiness with anyone but love you guys!!!

Hey! I know I never blog like for two days, not because there is nothing going on in my life (in fact there are many interesting events happening) but other problems I have with myself.
Okay, just to start, I am a youth leader!
Exciting?
Not really, as it means more work for me.
On the other hand, more of like a challenge and a way to glorify God. As I am actually the one who will have to cater the needs of the young ones and play a part in their spiritual growth. So since God has called me and put me in such a position, why not do it well.
A privilege I guess.
Talking about privilege, finally this Saturday will be the time which the show “Privilege” will once again broadcast on channel 5, I miss the bitching and stuff like that.
Haha, I was exposed to a lot of bitching during the last year of my secondary school days (Right Siying, Yihui, Weiloke and Brenda? Miss you guys too!)

Anyway, I attended a meeting on Saturday.
Awesome food prepared by Uncle Kim Meng and Aunty Georgina.
Ya, it is great to be like more involved in the church.
But saying this, there are a lot of changes made such as no more youth service and a change of the youth pastor… I am not saying that it is bad or I’m against it, it just that I am not really use to it and I am somewhat a person resistant to change.
Too many changes so need time to digest the fact—the new normality.
HEY! New word!

I also went to my senior’s church so as to open my horizon and meet more youthful believers like myself. It may sound weird but to me when I hang out with fellow believers (not only those friends in church but even believers who I do not know or really hang out) it is like an energy boost drink, I get charged up and do not feel discourage as the devil is very good at it.
So many youths and they are Christians, amazing!

Today, the first Sunday of 2010, the changes were implemented.
I was in-charge of sec 1s, great bunch.
Definitely there were comments that I had that I really need to air but some things it is better not to say, as the comment is somewhat biased.
SO comments and thoughts were kept in my head and indeed it do not feel good.
I tell you how it feels like, it is like it makes you very angry but you just don’t know why, and also everything that people do, it just makes you want to say something bad to that person even though it not true.
In other words reading too much in between the lines and also having the thought that they have a bad motive.
Not good at all.

Well, there is a problem so there is a solution.
If not, I will not be blogging as I am really afraid that if I blog I make write really harmful stuff.
The solution is simple, pray and just talk to God. I told God a lot of stuff, both bad and good comments. It is felt good to just let the comments flow freely, knowing that it will not hurt the person (as in not telling the person comments that I know I will regret, thinking before speech--prevention of careless speech) and at the same time I know that God is listening and somehow teaching me certain values.
Amen.
Indeed, now no bias comments are in my head, it is clearer then a blue sky.
I am really privilege to have a God who loves and also always there ready to listen to me when there is nobody I can talk to.

Song of 2009 and currently still loving:
Down-- Jay sean

Those who are returning back to school, all the best with your unfinished homework.
For those waiting for the results (a.k.a not going back to school), happy holidays!

Love
Mic3helle