da-da-da we ain't gonna live forever

Smile mich, smile. Saturday, May 1, 2010 7:49 PM

Life is so tough.
Especially when it comes to Junior College.
Tests are the least of my problems, understanding the topic is one major problem that constantly worries me.
I should not bother you readers with the problems that I have.
Hello May!
Goodbye April!
I am referring to the month and not someone else.
Haha.

It has been 3 months studying in Junior College. As you heard from me, I am struggling.
I also found out that this world is a cold world. People are relatively more competitive this time round, I meant compared to in secondary school.
In my class, all are smart-alexs. I do not imply that 22 people are named Alex but they are smart, by birth. I mean everyone is smart in his or her own ways; it is something God blessed them with.
So it is inevitable that there will be competition.
I am rather afraid that I will become one that is of a heartless and selfish individual.
At the same time, I am also falling behind some of my subjects.
That is one of the problems that I have.

Another is friends.
I have to state very clearly that friends are the most important figures and characters in my life, apart from my parents.
I have to admit that I owe my good grades to my friends in secondary school. Well, they are somewhat the reason that I work very hard so that I can BE someone that they can look for if they have any problems that is related to studies.
Not for money.
Not for fame.
Just have a heart that yearns to serve a dear friend.
I have to indeed thank the Lord for placing Phyllis and Brenda in the same school as me and also for Meihui, Felicia and Siying to be in a school so close to me.
Just that they are within reach so that I can hang out with them. Hanging out with them is something that I really missed and yearn for, as they are the source of entertainment and encouragement.
I have to say, I miss my secondary school days not because of the school but because of the people that I hang out and eat with, suffer and enjoy with, laugh and cry together.
In life we need each other’s help, which is something that I am yet to get from my classmates.
It is tough trying to offer what I cannot give, helping others academically, and the only one trying very hard to be catering to my classmates needs.
It is not that I am complaining.
It is just that I am losing steam.
Feeling drained.
Sometimes feeling like I am fighting a losing battle.
Don’t worry! I am not depressed.
You know why?
I have someone really special.
Isaiah 55:6
“Seek the Lord while he may be found; call on him while he is near.”
I have an empty heart at the end this whole week, month. I am tired.
But with Jesus by my side, there is a surge of electricity in me. Now, I am rather all charged up.
Not trying to ask you guys to change religion, I just do not want you to leave my blog feeling sad.
Cold, cold world, here I come with some warmth. ^^

Love
Mic3helle